Hey I got a new xanga.  So if you want it you gotta ask me cuz I'm definately not givin it out to every one.  Love yas.

Em

Shit shit Fuck shit!  Ok just had to get that out.  Hmm...I feel pretty bad.  Lindsay called me the other day and her phone died so I was supposed to call her back on the shop phone so I tried to like 40 million times and it kept saying the number is disconected. So I gave up.  Cody and Sean picked me up then.  Sean got me flowers.  We just hung around my place. Then of course my mom took over about her damn war stories. Stupid bitch GO HOME!  (quick update my mom will be back in PA by the end of this week!).  Next day we went out. This time it Levi came with us.  He's really cool too.  So Levi, Cody, Sean and I all went to the shack and hung out for a long time.  Wes called (kinda awkward)  Then I got home around 11 and my mom was soooooooooooooooo pissed but she got over it like usual.  The only reason I don't want her to go is cuz I won't be able to hang out as much when she's gone.  : (  I hope I can hang out today.  I know I can't monday cuz I have to go to my stupid counselor.  Maybe since my mom is at church right now she'll come home all religious and nice and let me go. lol.  Well thats it really. 

Later

Emily

<3 Sean's the greatest! I love him.

      Hey everyone.  Life's been suprisingly good lately.  Hung out with Sean and Cody last night.  It was so great.  Black lights, glow sticks, loud music.... Fun!  Came home and the first thing my mom noticed was I smelled like smoke. lol So much for me quitting.  Oh well.  Damn you Lindsay I am so jealous that you got a tattoo before me!  Well some of you heard the good news. But I can't tell some people cuz all hell would break loose.  And for the new news, I am moving home for the summer... But! I don't know if I'm staying for good or not.  It all depends on my moms job.  Well I'm back to my usual shitty grades.  But thats ok I don't care if I fail any more.  Ok so thats it for now.  Later.

This pic is for Sheri.  Cuz yeah we have a thing for the Beatles.  Dead Sexy!!!

I'm not happy.  Not happy with myself.  Not happy with the way people feel about me.  Not happy with were I am. I'm not sure if I should come home.  I seriosly get this really strong feeling in the pit of my stomach that no one wants me back or they just don't care if I stay here.  IDK what to think any more.  I mean I was just talking to some one and they told me not to come home.  It fucking hurts so bad to know people dont give a flying shit about you.  I knew I never had any one.  I was always right.  It's supposed to be this way... Me by myself.

                  Alone. 

So I think I will have to make a desicion about wether to stay in Indiana or Go home.  I guess this one is up to me since no one cares what i do.  Ok wel I'll think about it tonight while I lye in my hotel bed.  Crying.Quietly.